I'm a world class procrastinator -

I know guilt is not a productive emotion. I know it. Intellectually. I can't change yesterday. I know. But right now I'm really kicking myself.

Mama's sister, my ittybitty Aunt Hilda had a heart attack, but due to her other health issues, is not expected to leave the hospital. She weighs 63 pounds, has complications due to her terrible auto accident years ago, is in congestive heart failure, but is not a candidate for any of the usual corrective procedures. In this picture . . . Dog=75 pounds IttyBitty Aunt = 83 pounds.

She was talking yesterday and asked about everyone - asking by name, asking how they are doing, telling stories - until she just didn't have the breath to talk. And even then she still wanted to talk! I'm doing well one minute and weepy the next. I mostly mad at myself for not going to visit her more. I know guilt is not a productive emotion. I know it. Intellectually. I can't change yesterday. I know.

But I will say this.

**Do it now. Whatever it is you've been thinking about and keep putting off. Call that classmate you've lost touch with but think about occasionally. Call your mother. Or you uncle. Sister. Aunt. Friend. Take that pretty new dress, or shirt or skirt you got for Christmas and folded neatly, put in a drawer to save for a special occasion. Unfold it. Wear it. Enjoy it.

If you can't go to NYC, go see a touring Broadway show. If you've always wanted to go see a favorite sports team, find a way.

I'm a world class procrastinator. If you are, too - Make a list of things you want to do, people you've been meaning to have lunch with, something you've wanted to try.

And start with one thing on your list. And do it.

I'm off to see Aunt Hilda earlier in the day and catch her before the day wears her out. And maybe she'll have breath enough to tell me one of her stories. (She loves to talk and the congestive heart failure is crowding out her breath making that difficult.)

Go kiss somebody!**

Hugs from the NC Coast

Cotton