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What if it is not true?

06/02/08

After seeing the incident with the camera man from TMZ, I wondered what had brought Clay to such an action? Was it anger or hurt?

Was it anger? One of his friends is having a baby. She must be very excited for at her age it seams almost like a miracle to have been able to conceive. No matter how! And like every friend Clay would have been very happy for his friend. And worried, for a pregnancy is never without fear. And his friend not being that young anymore, is in the group that many women share, in the higher risk pregnancy . And some reporter just makes up a story, no matter what the cost and or results. Making up the story that he is the donor for the AI, and with that judging him once again as being gay. Calling him the second Michale Jackson. And a happy time is dragged through the mud.

How angry would I be? And how tired? Tired of defending my privacy, integrity, honor, pride? No matter how thick and high of a media wall one builds up. (or for that matter in our own little private live the office talk) We hear it, see it and have to work with it. We can't risk confrontation, our job is at risk and so is Clay's. And even though one tells oneself over and over again, that it is not worth our energy or time, it makes us angry and it hurts. At least at our job we most likely don't have someone facing us directly, asking or demanding us to put our private live on display. For our co-workers most likely don't have the balls. But in Clay's live the reporters don't need the balls, just the ball-less ignorance of getting a story/paycheck.

I wondered how would I feel, if I would want a family and just had not found the right person to start a family, yet? A man might not have the biological clock ticking, but a man going on 30 does have a mental clock. And that clock ticks louder and louder as well. Wondering why one has not found the right person? What if I don't find the right one? How old will I be? Did I picture myself over 30 for starting a family?

And all those questions are hard enough to live with. But having the media right his your face, invading his privacy, making remarks about his sexuality again. And for what? The TMZ/reporter for sure is not going to win the Pulitzer price for this kind of story, but money! That must be devastating. Your name being used again and again to make money. These kind of reporters don't care about a person, there family and friends. Or facts for that matter! I would be both angry and hurt.

P.S. please pardon my English and spelling for it is not my native language.