Getting back on track to be positive in this blog, I will say one thing. I am not letting anyone chase me off here like some others may have been chased off before me. People that are calling me impolite (actually in itself not a bad thing when speaking up against something that is wrong) and uneducated should get a life. Yeah, I have a masters degree and a bachelors degree with about 10 years in a professional field. Yeah, I'm REALLY uneducated. I'm sure the top big 10 and top big 12 schools I graduated from would love to hear that. The person claimed I was jealous of them. Yeah, I am so jealous I that I actually have a life and they don't. Someone that calls someone out on having being "uneducated" needs to do their research. I would bet $5 they don't even have an associate's degree.

I'm not saying school is the only way to be educated, but I get annoyed at people that belittle others with words sounding benign (and are good at it). Yeah, I'm so uneducated and impolite that I have my degrees, have my friends (mostly NON-Claymates nor haters either), and have a solid church family behind me. What is sad is that people that like to harass people like me get their attention because that is what bullies thrive on. Sadly standing up to them when they pick on others gives them the negative attention they crave. Yet, my dilema is if I don't stand up, it makes me just as bad as the one bullying by allowing it to happen since the people that should keep it in check are not. Take home message is I am not going away and I am also NOT a hater. Call me that all you want and it doesn't make me one. Call me the guy that spread the NE rumors all you want, it doesn't mean I am him (plus he makes me ill). I am just a person that likes Clay's voice and happens to participate in some of the charities he is involved with. To squash another rumor again, I have always participated in volunteer organizations. I am NOT in BAF "to marry Clay." sigh It feels like I am in high school dude and what makes me sad is it is a minority that do it. The majority is scared to stand up to them like I have tried because they have probably seen me ostrasized (spelling?).

Ok, let's move on. I have spoken my peace.

Tomorrow I cannot wait to see Kelly Clarkson in concert. I have my earplugs all set. The reason why I wear earplugs is because her shows are loud. I made the mistake back in 2003 to no wear earplugs at an Elton John/Billy Joel show in St. Louis (when I lived in Kansas City). My right ear has not been the same since. I look forward because I have had the ticket since around August. This will make up for Anaheim being cancelled.

I already am getting bites on my resume. So maybe I will be employed again before I know it. It is sad to see all these mortgage folks in my job classes. The sad thing about the new economy is you are lucky to be 2 years or more at the same company nowadays. That is why I am considering to go back to school to earn another bachelors degree. Science is a fun field, but it is a handicap I am female. I am not in there to try to prove a point. I enjoy the work, but it sucks the fun out of it when no matter what you do it won't be as highly regarded as a male (or sometimes an Asian female - which has been acknowleged and a frustration of some of my close friends that happen to be in the later group) colleague. I'm not here to destroy stereotypes. So, I wonder what God wants. I have a couple career ideas so hopefully it may be the right direction.

I got a letter from my Houndras sponsored child a couple days ago. I don't care if I have to auction of a kidney to keep sponsoring her. It was just a good goosebump moment.

Well, I guess this entry was kind of scattered brained. Unless Clay is put on death row for gunning an orphanage down with an oozie, I am staying put. So there.

Yeah, I was hurt and ticked about his last blog about stories not being just so, but that does NOT make me a hater. I have gotten over it, shrugged it off, and just doing my thang. That one thing it does say is that it just makes me human.

LUV

ps I have no idea why I like the Britany Spears song, but I do. Scary.