All I really want in life is to have the name mommy. I want o have a child with my husband. Boy or girl or multiples or whatever.
I want to be a mother. My husband wants to be a dad. He will make a great one. If for no other reason he is a big kid at heart. The way he is with our neices and nephews. the way they look at him or he at them, I just know its time for us to have one of our own.

The way I have been feeling over the last few weeks have made me think that just maybe I feel this way because I am pregnant.

Last night went to Kmart and bought a twin pack of tests.

Didn't have an opportunity to take the test until after I got home this afternoon. The first thing I did when I walked in the door this afternoon was take that test.

It was a big fat negative.

I am getting so stressed and upset and confused and worried and scared and angry and, well, you get the picture.

Yes we have dicusssed adoption and yes even talked about the possiblity of fostering.

Fertility assistance is out of the question. Either way it is gonna cost us a bundle but but we aren't in a position financially at the moment to go thru with fertility things like in Vitro and all the others.

I and hubby could use some prayers thoughts advice anything you can dish out that might be of some help or comfort to us in this stressful time.