You've all had them, friends you never really wanted but can't get rid off because they just keep coming around anyway.

I have no one to talk to about this so i will post it here. Dunno if anyone remembers the nightmare i had a long time ago about my friend Jerry abducting me. I had long since told myself it was just a dream and moved on since he has stopped being pushy about things and we can hang out without the stupidity now.....almost. He still says things i wish he wouldn't but i just roll my eyes and ignore him.

Anyway i had a dream last night that i was in a house with another girl and we were both talking on the phone on two seperate phone lines when suddenly my line went dead. I turned and looked at the girl with me and said

"your phone just go dead?"

she nods yes and we looked at each other as what was going on dawned on us and the understanding that the phone lines had just been cut passed between us. I said something to the effect of

"oh f*%k!"

and tried to find a place to hide because i knew who was coming. I was scrambling to hide behind the couch when i said

"oh for goodness sakes this is so numb he is going to see me back here, i can't hide"

So i came out to face him and he was standing in the kitchen wearing nothing but a white wife beater and loose pants, his hair and eyes wild. I kept trying to throw things at him but kept missing him by mere inches. He came at me and everytime i tried to kick or hit him i couldn't get enough strength to hit hard enough, it was like something was stopping me from getting any force behind my punches and kicks. I managed to hit him on the head with a vase which dazed him but it wasn't hard enough. It never occured to me to expect my friend to try and help me. Next thing i know he is on top of me holding me down, trying to force himself on me while i struggle to get away from him and that was it.

I'm positive it was just a dream and didn't mean anything but i felt the need to get it out anyway. I feel better now.

My mothers husband smacked me on the ass yesterday.....i was highly unimpressed with that and it probably dredged up my issues with men. shrugs

Rest gently Storm