I am in a bad situation with my business I have been struggling for a month or two so far and I have used up my resources that is I sold all my excess to keep going the only thing i have let is my ticket to the concert and that may have to go next. I am not sad though I love Clay and someday he will go through his site and he may read this and he will know that I had to do what I had to do. I felt that I could do it all and I may have been able to but i would be as humble as i am now. I will do what it takes to stay in one more month and with alot of luck and some new people who want to join in with me to promote getting better safer products for their body and home I will be able to pick up the pieces and get back to the donating and making a difference until then if I do lose it all or have to take a leave to work fulltime outside of the home I will leave with a bang. Keeping the faith the best I can but I admit this has been a trial of trials and when I emerge my life will either be better or worse but I would know that I gave it my all and that it just was not meant to be. I love all of you for replying and taking time to listen to me ramble believe in yourselves and no matter what find the twinkle in your eyes you thought you lost and go on better days lay just over the horizon