Have you ever gotten that feeling where you just want to fly away to some remote island and stay there? I've been feeling like that lately. I just feel like I'm such a major disappointment to everyone around me. I'm a disappointment to myself. Everyone is always talking about what I need to do to be somebody. I know that I'm not doing well right now. I know that I want to be doing better. I just don't know how right now, and I need to figure it out for myself. I keep trying to prove to everyone that I'm not as worthless as I appear, but I don't think I'm doing a very good job. Everyone thinks I'm not taking things seriously, but I am. I want nothing more than for the people I love to be proud of me again, but I don't see that happening anytime soon. I want them to be proud for something that I did for me, not something that I did because everyone told me to. I want to be happy and bubbly again. I want to love who I am again. I hate knowing that the stressed out look on my husband's face is my fault. I want to live. Sorry for being so depressing. I just needed to get that out.

Hannah