Well, I'm just checking in. I've got a few things to report. First, I got a job. It's a temp job, but still. I haven't gotten paid to do something for three years now, so this feels pretty darn good. I'm still really scared about the pain situation though. The reason that I haven't worked is still there, and much worse than it was before. I'm back on oxycontin. At least, I will be as soon as I sort out a few things. The pharmacy rejected my prescription, saying I needed prior authorization. It really kind of sucked that they told me this at closing time Friday night, because the soonest I can call my doctor is tomorrow. Oh well, I suppose I've been worse off. As much as I hate the idea of having to go back on oxycontin, I really don't think I'd make it through my 8-5 office job without it.

On a lighter note, my family decided to spend Christmas at my house, since it was impossible for me to get to my parents until the 28th. That means that Christmas dinner is primarily my responsibility. I just hope I don't blow up the ham or something. I'm not much of a cook, especially if it's a meal that requires attention and me being on my feet for hours. But, it's worth it. At the very least, my mom will be proud of me for trying. It's been a long time since I felt worthy of my parent's pride, or anyone else's. And I've dipped right back into the depressing again. Sorry about that.

If you pray for me, please pray for a pain-free Christmas. I just want that one day to be good. I'd ask for Christmas Eve, too, but that might be pushing it. One day is enough. I don't really think that's humanly possible, so it's a good thing I believe in miracles. I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday season.

God Bless! Hannah