Well, I just realized that all the songs I'd written down got lost in my other blog, so I thought I'd write them all down again. Some of them aren't very long, more like little choruses or something. So, here it goes:

These are a couple of songs I wrote after I got dumped

Why?

Why'd you have to go away Why'd you have to go? I won't let it end this way, That you've gotta know. 'Cause when you left, my heart, it shattered. I felt beaten and battered. But none of it mattered in the end. Who would have thought that you would come back Own up to all that you lack Who would have thought that you'd become my friend?

The Things You Taught Me

You taught me about betrayal, You taught me about pain. You showed me that sometimes there's no rainbow After the rain. You showed me there are times when My word just isn't enough. But most of all, You taught me about love.

Chorus: I wish I could've seen inside you, Looked into your eyes. Maybe I would've seen it. The fear behind the lies. Maybe I could've stopped you From getting rid of me. Then maybe, it just wasn't meant to be.

Verse 2 You taught me how to love someone, You taught me how to hate. You showed me that there's no such thing as A clean slate. I learned one thing from you though That always helped me cope. You taught me that I should never give up hope.

Repeat Chorus

Verse 3 You taught me to be stronger Than I've ever known You taught me how to trust myself With the confidence you've shown. You showed me when you left me My heart was broken but now shattered. You taught me that my feelings still do matter.

This is a song I wrote about my husband

You complete me

In the silence, I can hear your voice. And in the darkness, I can see your face. Now I know When I don't have the strength to stand You'll be there Reaching out to hold my hand. These feelings that I have are one's I've never known before. Sure I've been in love, But this is so much more.

Chorus(sort of): You saw the deepest part of me, The part that no one else could see. You loved me as I was, Now you complete me.

Verse 2 When I felt worthless, You encouraged me. When I felt weakest, You gave me strength. Now I see That there's nothing we can't do We will succeed When it's me, our God, and you. You see me when I triumph And you see me when I fall. And much to my surprise You found beauty where I saw flaw.

Repeat chorus.

This is a song I wrote during my first hospital stay.

Listen to My Heart

I'm in the middle of a crowded room, And I feel so lonely and scared. My life seems like one big test, For which I'm not prepared. I don't know just where I'm goin' But I do know where I've been. And if there's one thing that I have learned It's without You I can't win.

Chorus: Lord I wanna see you, I wanna hear your voice. Can you tell me please If you're there and listening. And do you really see me When I am in the dark. And when I'm truly struggling Will you listen to my heart?

The world is dark, Everyone's asleep. Everyone but me. I really wish that little voice inside Would just leave me be. I always pretend to be so strong But my mind is filled with doubt. I don't know what I'm doin' wrong, tell me What's life all about?

Repeat chorus

Verse 3 I'm sitting here in my room alone My bible's on my shelf. I think I've finally realized I can't do this by myself. I don't know how much I have to give But I'll give you all I've got. The best part of having you command Is knowing that I'm not.

Chorus 2 Cause if I wanna see you Then I have to close my eyes. And all I have to say Is that I'm here and listening. With your eternal light to guide me I'm no longer in the dark. And though you knew the answers, You still listened to my heart. Thank you for listening to my heart. Oh, Lord, you listened To my heart.

This is a song I wrote sometime between my first and second surgeries. I don't really remember the circumstance.

Imperfect Love

You told me life was gonna be great And you showed me just a little too late That fairy tales aren't real No matter what I feel No knight in shining armor Or prince charming for me. But the world's been set right And I don't wanna fight With you. . .

Cause I'm no damsel in distress And I'm not a fairy princess If you're lookin for perfection Well, then, don't look my way. I am what God made me No if, ands, buts, or maybes, And you are who you are That's okay too. I'm imperfectly in love with you.

This is a song I wrote shortly after the miscarriage.

I remember

I remember Like it was yesterday All the pain, the anguish the fear. And I remember How it felt that day The first day I didn't feel you hear. Left in shock and confusion Why was God punishing me? It was ending I wasn't prepared for A page that I didn't want to read.

Verse 2 This pain was different I could barely breath. My world was unraveling fast The light had darkened I could no longer see. How long would this emptiness last? This pain was different, I could barely breath. My world was unraveling fast. The light had darkened, I could no longer see. How long would this emptiness last? My grief seemed to consume me, comforting words were in vain. I would pray every night for the answer, A reason for causing me such pain.

Then I saw it, so faint at first, Just a flicker in this endless night. But it grew stronger with each passing day, And I knew my girl was gonna be all right. Nothing on earth could describe it, The peace that surrounds me today. Though my heart still feels sadness, I know that it's not here to stay.

This is my latest song. I sort of defines this past year for me.

Fill me

Fill me up from the inside out Show me what this life's about Tell me that I don't need to hide Give me strength to find my way Lord, please help me through this day. Will nothing stop this pain deep inside? Will you make it all ok? Will you love me anyway? Without You, Lord, I know I can't face the day.

Chorus: Lord I need some relief Something I can believe in. Some hope for tomorrow today. I know I can't give up now. Lord, please make me stronger. For now I'll get down on my knees to pray.

Verse 2 Stuck in a rut and I can't break free. Played every role, but I can't play me. I just need to know who I am. Used to be nothing could get me down. I was the girl who had no doubt. This is a feeling I don't understand. I'm broken now I know, Your love can make me whole So I'll close my eyes and let you take control

Chorus 2 Then I'll find some relief Something I can believe in. Some hope for tomorrow today. So I won't give up now. My faith makes me stronger. That's why I get down on my knees and pray.

Well, I hope you enjoyed my little walk through memory lane. Have a great day!

God Bless! Hannah