For those of you that remember I am going through a divorce and am on my own for the first time in my life.

So, I am learning to do things by myself. I'm sure it will sound strange and weak to many, but my husband did so much for my son and I. I took care of the inside of the house, you know. But all the major stuff he did. He took care of the bills and the cars too.

So much has happened recently, just one thing after another I have had to deal with. My son and I have not been getting along. Our air conditioner broke (we live in AZ it has been 116), I had to take my sons van to the garage yesterday. I mowed the lawn for the first time in my life yesterday. I'm 36 and have never done yard work LOL. I'm sure it would be funny to watch me try to figure all this stuff out. I didn't know how to put gas in the lawmower and turn it on or anything. I have had to learn how to take care of our pool and everything.

What a mess I am. But I am doing it. I never thought I could do all of these things that is for sure. I thought I would die when he said he was leaving me. I am happy most of the time, it still hurts. I am okay, untill I talk to him or see him. He took a job in Colorado and comes home every couple of weeks to see our son. Although they have no relationship at this time. Long story I will get into at another time.

The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation. He is my God, and I will praise him, my father's God, and I will exalt him. Exodus 15:2