First of all, I love this song that I'm listenging to. If you haven't heard David Phelps before and you like Christian music you should check him out.

For anyone that prayed for me to get through this weekend. Thank you so much! I'm know it helped tremendously. Saturday was fine, I didn't have to see my stbx (soon to be ex). But Sunday was just awful. The air conditioner broke again in the middle of the night Saturday night and just blew hot air. I am in AZ and it has been like 110 etc. The thing just got fixed like 2 weeks ago.

Anyway we got into a huge fight Sunday morning. I won't go into the details they are stupid. He was extremely cruel to me and just broke my heart again. Becuase of the miserable night and then all of the emotions I slept for quite a while Sunday. Then just watched movies, I was exhausted.

I pulled myself together eventually and enjoyed chat last night with my friends. You all mean so much to me! I want to thank you for laughing with me and helping me through this.

It really is a good thing in a way that I see this bad side of him. I have to be happy in my trials. If I remember that he is awful to us, I won't feel bad that he left me. It's easy to feel sorry for myself that I am alone now. When someone you love is like a Jeckyl and Hyde it plays with your mind. So it's actually good for me that this happened in a way. I will remember that he is bad for me and I won't be sorry that he is gone.

I hope this blog entry doesn't bring anyone down. It shouldn't I feel blessed today. I got what I needed. I'm sure it was a lesson to help me distance myself more from him. I'm still tired from the emotional drain of it all. He is still in town till Tuesday. And I wonder when I will have peace from him. But I know God is in control and he won't let him win over me.