"God forbid. What if you had died?"

I was in a car accident a few days ago. Wednesday to be exact. It wasn't serious. No broken bones, no blood. Just - yeah "just" a concussion. And our van needs lots of repairs.

An uninsured, unlicsensed person was driving an unregistered car and turned left from a stop sign inot flowing traffic. He never saw me until it was too late. I saw him and hoped out loud that he was going to stop. By the time I swerved and slammed the brakes it was too late. He hit me.

The force of the impact jerked me to the right and then back to the left. That's when I hit my head on the handle above the window. You know - the handle you grab to help you into this 2005 soccer mom style vehicle.

How is it that this person did not see me? Big black van - not easy to miss!

Thank God injuries were minor. I don't think he or his passenger had any injuries. I hope not. At the time I was not the least bit interested. I was mad.

Again, thank God for keeping me from harm - major harm that is.

But, my friend at work has caused me to think about how lucky I was. How quickly things in our lives can change. Not only that, but how badly am I taking this one and only life for granted?

We only get one chance to live our lives. One chance to do our best. One chance to teach our children. ONe chance to live my life the way God would want me to live it.

I feel a major ramble coming on!

What am I doing for God? What am I doing to show that I am living for God?

I'm certainly not doing a very good job at home. I'm not doing a very good job with my body either.

What am I teaching my kids? With my faith and my struggle with weight I am teaching them to be complacent. I'm not trying hard. I start and then give up. I have no drive. I am showing them that it is easier to just give up.

"Do as I say, not as I do" is a horrible way to parent a child. I need to be the one setting the example. Even for my husband.

My self reliance is causing me to self destruct. Success does not and will not come by being selfish, self centered, and unmotivated.

My reliance needs to be on God. God needs to be the center of my life and He needs to be my source of motivation.

Until then I will be in this terrible holding pattern.

I hadn't planned on telling everyone what had happened. I new MN would be the one I told from SC. In fact, I almost called her after I called my hubby. He was the first one I called of course. But I have so many wonderful friends over there (and here at the OFC) that I felt I needed to share. Y'all have all shared so much as well.

It's great to know that in our little cyber community we can share fun times and scary times, prayers and hugs.