Blog Entry
Blog Entry
Love?
01/04/07What is love? How do I know if I'm "In Love"? The reason I'm saying this is that I think I'm starting to fall in love. I've been seeing a guy for a little over a month (too soon to be in love... isn't it?) But I was with him last night and we were just talking about random things and one thing that came up was school and bullying. See I don't normally talk about it 'cause I know way too much about it... I was soooo used to getting my daily ass kickings from other kids. Well anyways my boyfriend was telling me about how he used to always get picked on in school and stuff, We had quite the conversation and after he told me about his experiences i told him about mine. He was VERY shocked that we both went through very similar situations. We also talked about how him and his brother didn't really get along when growing up and I mentioned that I have the same problem with my sister. We were sitting in my car until about 3:15am just talking. He looked at me and said that it's weird that 2 people who barely knew each other (yea we went to high school together but didn't really talk much there) get together and find out that they had so many of the same things happen to them. Then he said to me that he really thinks that we were meant to be together, I asked why and he just said "we're very similar". See here's the thing we've NEVER said "I LOVE YOU" to each other (like I said I feel it's too soon). But I'm getting really strong feelings for him, feelings I've never felt before. I've only been in one other relationship before the one I'm in now and I thought I loved that guy but I didn't. My feelings are so different with my current boyfriend and it was with my ex. Then again my ex was an alcoholic and big into drugs, I didn't see it at the time, my friends were telling me that my ex was no good, but like I said I didn't see it. Well now I see it and well I'm glad that I am out of that relationship, and with the guy I'm with now. This relationship is totally different from the one I had with my ex, all the ex thought about when me and him were alone is sex... with my boyfriend that is the farthest thing on his mind, there were chances but no, he's not like that. I'll give you an example Christmas eve. my boyfriend came over to my place for a bit we went into my bedroom and watched a movie, nothing happend we just cuddled on my bed.... NOW if it was my ex.. it would've ended up differently. Right now I can see that this relationship is different my my last. Also last night after I dropped him off at his house, when I was driving home I started to cry.. I don't know the reason, could it be that I was crying 'cause I'm falling in love? I don't know. But I know something, I'm actually happy. But I keep asking myself this.... "Is it too soon to be in love?"