We all have so many varied journies we've weaved into this tapestry of life, yet, here we are at one man's fanclub following HIS journey. So much of his journey is not known to us, yet, so much has touched us.

I've been to three CA concerts. My first was his solo tour in Dallas, well, ok... Grand Prairie. I had not been to a concert at that time in the past 30 years. My previous concerts would mostly fall in the classic rock genre... Emerson, Lake and Palmer, YES, King Crimson, ELO, Led Zepplin, The Who, etc., Now, I don't think I could sit through one of their concerts. I'm just a tad bit more mellow, even if I do still have fond memories of that era.

Now there is this new fella. The first time I heard Clay live, I remember reporting that it was like he reached in and kissed my soul. His music touches me deeply.

I don't think I can put into words how I feel about this man right now. I thought I might when I started to write, and then realized this entry would go on for pages.

We are getting ready for another step forward in this journey that joins us. I truly believe we will be hearing news "quite soon" and this rocky road we've been on lately will take another turn. It will be like coming up over that hill driving into Las Vegas. I haven't made that turn for years and years, but I remember what a lovely sight that is at night, to come out of the mountains and see that lit city down in the valley. There are just turns in a road that are almost heart-stopping they are so exquisitely beautiful.

I am ready for this next turn and, Clay, I hope you are as well.

A THOUSAND DAYS

We've had some excitement over this song in recent days. This is what I wrote in one of the threads here yesterday:

"I think I must be a total sap because I LOVE this song. Have from day one. I only attended one JBT concert and was thrilled that I was in the group that got to hear this live.

I think the song is beautiful, it has a nice hook, Clay's voice is terrific and yes, I even like the lyrics. To me, drek is junk like JT's Sexy Back. That is drek. I also love hearing a song that I can easily understand the words and don't have to struggle to figure out what the singer is singing. Just perfect!

I don't expect this song to make it to the cd. I am one that wishes all those that he previewed could make it to the cd because I would love to hear finely produced studio versions of all four of them. I'll be thrilled if we get some kind of "bonus" that gives us just that."(end quote)

I've always felt it possible that Clay wrote this song. Maybe, maybe not. I don't know who the author is fighting for in this song. Is it a lost love? Is it possible this is about the children of Uganda? I don't know, but it touches me.

Yet, I find a certain sadness with it as well. I write here in my blog about my son's brain tumor because I rarely talk about it anywhere else. Occasionally I talk with my daughter about it, but we are both still so raw that we mostly stick to the basics, what is going on with Kyle, how is he feeling, etc., rather than how WE are feeling. It is just too much.

When I hear the words, "the angels came, I'd fight them back to win your soul" it truly does hit close to home. How do I fight the angels back? In this situation I can't. I can pray that chemo and radiation therapy will work. But, I do know it is going to take a miracle.

Clay has been a miracle in my life the way he has brought music back to me. I keep him close to heart while I travel my own journey with my son, a young man who needs a miracle.