Here is a definition of "Anger" I found on the web:

anger: a negative emotion caused by a loss of control and attempt to regain it. Caused by negative ego thinking rather than Spiritual thinking! Caused by attachment and not looking at things as lessons. Also not keeping your bubble of protection up! iamuniversity.org/glossary/cv_glossarylist.php

I am not one that easily succombs to anger. NO matter what the situation the highest level I might reach is that of "irritation" rather than pure anger.

It's just me. I find that anger is usually a waste of emotional energy and is often focused on minor events when life offers big challenges that deserve more of my attention.

I also almost never cuss... out-loud anyway. Does that mean I'm a prude? Nah, I just don't feel the need and "for me" cussing doesn't fit.

All that being said, right now I am DAMN PISSED!!! Ok, there, I said it.

I am appalled that a "fan" would "campaign" against Clay by seeking out other fans to boycott Clay's OFC because that fan is angry with Clay for not meeting that fan's expectations.

I realize that the Clay Nation is a diverse group of individuals and it is not useful to discuss "good fan" verses "bad fan" issues. However, I fail to see how anyone purposely doing something to openly hurt Clay can be see as someone who is a fan.

Do I wish we had CD news? Sure I do. Do I wish Clay was better at blogging more often. Sure I do. BUT, I don't know the whys and no matter what the "whys" are, I still support Clay. I am just floored by this person "reaching out" in the manner they are.

I guess some people never joined the "Circle Your Wagons" thread and if they did, unconditional love was not part of it for them. Well, it is for me. I will still be here, not always patiently, waiting on what comes next in Clay's career. I might be selfish because I hope he knocks my socks off.

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Clay... always and forever.

(P.S. If you read my last blog, you know the "waiting" game has been tough in other areas of my life as well. Still no new word yet on whether there is any tumor reduction for my son).