Ok, so my last blog I ranted a bit. That is so not like me. Thank you to those who took the time to respond. I am always touched that people do that. I am TERRIBLE about responding to blogs. I have reactions and feelings, but I get tongue-tied and never know what to say.

I will say that this week of CLAY has been terrific. What a mood lift this has been. Not just for me. There is soooo much less angst out there in Clay Nation and I like that.

So news on the Clay front is more hopeful and an actual sighting is drawing near.

Kyle update.

News is "slightly" better. It is difficult to discern at this point. His most recent MRI shows that the tumor "might" have shrunk a bit. What the heck does that mean?

I can hear the depression in his voice and it is so difficult to not be able to give him a big hug. Kyle, even as a teen-ager has always been very affectionate. It doesn't bother him in the least to give someone a hug, so I know he would welcome a hug about now.

His first words Monday were "I HATE chemo". I knew right then things were not good. Apparently they want him to do one more series of chemo before going on to the radiation therapy.

I think some of the reality of his illness is settling in more now. His upbeat outlook has taken a hit.

He has consistently kept in his mind he would just do through this chemo and radiation therapy and then he could get back out there and work. He is starting to face the fact that might not happen the way he envisioned. He is getting tired.

I wish I was in a position to even visit him and give him his hug and do what mom's do. He is so young to be dealing with this stuff.

Wow, this blog sounds like a downer. Oh, well. It is what it is.

At least Clay news is good!