I feel like I don't know whether I'm coming or going, and feel like I'm on the verge of a panic attack a lot of the time.

Everything has started going so much better for me, but now that it has, I'm being pulled in 15 different directions, and I don't have enough time for anything!

Back in June, I applied through the local community action agency to get a new furnace, since I'm low income, and my furnace has officially died. Finally, the Tuesday before Labor Day weekend, I get a call that someone is coming down to look at my house. Great! He came, told me that they were going to replace the furnace, insulate the house, top to bottom, because it isn't insulated well at all--and I live in Iowa--AND they are going to replace my water heater and my refrigerator, as well as replace all my light bulbs with high efficiency ones--not the CFL bulbs though! I was astounded that I was going to get all this. But the bad thing is that I don't know when the work is going to start, and I need a new electric panel put in my house to be able to handle the electric heat pump. Right now I only have 100 amp service, and it really needs to be 200. So, he gave me the impression that it would probably be late October before they would get to the furnace. Fine. Well one of the contractors that is doing a bid came down last Thursday and looked at the house, so I asked him if he got the bid, when he thought the work would start, and he said quite possibly NEXT WEEK! I still haven't gotten ahold of an electrician! My dad, who is a building contractor and has done all his own wiring on every house he has built could have done it, except that the laws have recently been changed, and you are required to be a licensed electrician to do any electrical work, otherwise you will get a huge fine. And he isn't. So, I'm trying to get ahold of a local guy who is licensed, and his phone is disconnected. Found someone today who knows him, she texted him, and I still haven't heard from him. I'm freaking out! This has to be done before they get here to install the furnace!

So I'm dealing with this, and trying to keep my house reasonably clean because there have been several people who have come in to do estimates and so forth, get my refrigerator cleaned out so when they come to deliver the new one, they can take the old one. All the while, I'm working 25 hours a week at the library, keeping the library website updated, and trying to get the town website going as well. Oh, and babysitting on average of 15 hours a week. There just aren't enough hours in the day, and I'm really starting to feel really overwhelmed. I will be so glad when the work on my house is done, and hope I can get the electric done before they come. Hopefully this guy that was here won't get the bid, and I'll have a little more time.

I actually can't wait for this winter. Things should have slowed down by then and all the work on the house should be done, and stuff at the library should be settled. I'm trying to figure out how to do what the library wants to do, without their own network server. So I've been trying to read about different ways of getting around not having a dedicated server, but still offer the things on the website they want.

I think I need to get back into blogging, just to get some of the frustration and anxiety out. Maybe that will help me clear my head. So, I'm going to resolve to blog more often.