Talk about my sadest time in my life.

Hi, How is my fellow Claymates doing? I'm fine before I start blogging someone made a comment on my last blog about me making up stuff well I want to say that people has ignore me several times in the chat room so it wasn't a first time probably not the last time either. Its funny first time I chat with this person and made that comment and said that about me so funny. I also want to said to this person did you read my other blogs you will know that this wasn't the first time too so don't judge me on one time okay. I also today got some bad news on my granny that I post next time I want to talk my only best friend on here. I also want to said I don't know for sure on this but want to tell her. I anybody read my other blogs my granny has bone cancer. Okay now on what I want to blog about someone over on a thread talk about I'm a :( person I want to tell a story about the darkest time in my life that I was more :( than ever so I want to thank this person call me :( so I can tell this story. This month marks 17 anniversary of my grandfather death on my dad side. There is not a day goes by I think about him because I was name after him my first name is Leslie and his was Lester. He died of a massive heart attack my grandmother died first and he couldn't live without her in his life. Lucky my mom was with him because he was driving too (I didn't want her to go with him something inside me thought something bad was going to happen to her). He was slump over when she woke up and see him like that she help get the truck out of the road and try to find a hospital despite she was in Cincinnati didn't know a near one lucky she found one but he was already gone they couldn't do anything if they was right there. My mom call my dad and told this and it was hard on all of us but more hard on me. After the furnal I went to a serious depression and did think about killing myself too. I spend a year and a half of my life going thur a rough time in my life. The only way I got out of it anybody want to guess no it wasn't friends or family members it was myself got me thur it. One day I was at my library at school and I was looking for a book about grieving and found one of those help book about depression so I check it out. They did ask me if I was derepress I said no I was doing research (but I was and doing research on myself and took some advice I had when I went to counseling in 5 th grade too yes I went to see a shrink Clay). I found out how to overcome it and made me a more stronger person. Now I feel more bless and :) in life that I overcome this. There is a lot of people don't get thur depression its :( but true. I actually hate people call me :( person because they don't know I went thur this quick to judge me now are you. There is sometimes I do get :( but not as :( as I was almost 17 years ago. I was in a funk after my grandfather on my mom side for a month but what got me thur that was my family this time and meeting one true friend (she came after he died but she does talk to me about anything) over here. Sorry I'm bragging but she is in my eyes. I get up each day and say its a new day forget what happen yesterday. I hope everybody is having a good week. Like the title says I'm doing fine and before I go my thoughts and prayers go out to the people who either loss someone or there homes over the bad storms we had last night. I live in the state that got hit by the bad storms and we loss 7 people in my state of Kentucky. I'm very lucky I'm alright and my home is safe too. So send some prayers there way. Take care my fellow Claymates and don't let anybody get to you its not worth it one bit, :)