Down Right Hurtful

Hi, How is my fellow Claymates doing? I was doing good before I went to the chat room and now I'm not that good actually down right hurtful just because I can't go to see Spamalot. I went to the chat room tonight to talk to my buddy well she got kick off the computer was messing up on her well I try to chat with the people in there trying to talk about something anything beside Spamalot because I can't go why chat about it to me. I get ignore because everybody was talking about Spamalot. I don't go in the chat room that much just mostly to chat with my buddy on here but when I do here lately they all talk about Spamalot it frankly makes me sick yes sick. I feel bad enough on not going but it hurts me more on people ignoring me on me trying to talk about anything else. I got tried of it and I say when I left tonight not everybody is going to Spamalot and I wouldn't do this to you if I was going and you wasn't. I'm so hurt by this because there is other stuff to talk about beside Spamalot. I feel like next time if I do go back is to just ignore everybody else and chat with my buddy instead of trying to chat with everybody else because I'm getting treated kind of rudely. If you was in the chat room tonight I wonder why you ignore me? Did I do anything to offend you at all? Just because I can't go to Spamalot don't cut me off because of that. I still love Clay people think if you can't see Clay at ever tour he does that don't make you a fan in my book that is wrong. People have there reasons why they can't see Clay I have my reasons too. I'm down right hurt and :( over this I don't know if this happen to anybody else before but here lately its hurting me a lot. I feel so left out enough if anybody read my blogs before I don't have no offline friends and I never meet any of the Claymates in this club heck I don't have no phone numbers of no Claymates at all (I did have one number but me and her had a falling out). I sometimes feel left out in this club too and I think Clay wouldn't like that I do feel this way but I do. I guess I don't belong in no clique expect my own. I hope everybody else have a good weekend I did before the chat room tonight. I hope everybody have a good week take care and if anybody wonder I be fine I always be fine, :(