Hi, How is my fellow Claymates doing? I'm fine :) that the club finally got a update love the new layout kind of wonder why the message boards and the chat room get a update too? Kind of bum of it mostly my backgrounds went away and my music is gone now I don't know how to get it back so if anybody want to help me out with this new layout to put the backgrounds or the music back let me know okay. Okay now on with the title of my blog I being kind of :( not totally now :( just a little bit :( of not going to see Spamalot at all unless some surprise that I be getting there is no chance I be going at all. If anybody who is not going can relate to me on this so much. One person told me that they wasn't going but we should be :) well I'm :) but I was more :) over the Fan Club getting a update more that Spamalot on last Friday night being hoping for a update of the fan club so long kind of :) over it more. I'm :) of Spamalot too don't get me wrong but the fan club is for all of us Clay didn't forget the people who couldn't go to see him too love him on that Thank You Clay for remembering us on that. I also being :( too by not having no offline friends at all. I live in Kentucky and I know there is Claymates that live in Kentucky (I even chatted with a few of them not much because they stop chatted with me after a few days don't know why on it) that I haven't met at all yea that is right no Kentucky Claymates had met me at all. That is why over on myspace I'm call the Only Claymate In Kentucky because of I haven't met none of them or any Claymates at all too. People ask me to go to Louisville that live in Kentucky to meet them at there meet up but I can't go because of no driver license so that is hard for me to go in all. Even people at my workplace is shock that I don't have no friends at all I guess the way of my attitude is because I'm so upbeat and talk able I guess and love to talk about Clay Aiken so much too I try not talk to much at work because they do make fun of him kind of makes me upset somewhat. Its more :( that I want 2008 to be different for me this year I'm getting tried sitting at home and not do anything at all but so far this month is like last year I'm getting tried and fed up also the weather in Kentucky is not helping me out at all getting cold and wintering like too. I know you probably ask so why do you do anything about it but I do try ever year I do so I want this year to be totally different than the past year. I am doing one thing right now that I hope and pray (yes I do pray on this very hard too ) Clay do after Spamalot is over that is make me more :) that he go on tour this summer tour and hope his CD does come out in May so we can have the tour too. I'm also being trying to save money any way that I can too. I also hope my buddy over here will go with me too (hope she is saving money too like me) if he tour this summer she is gear up too she also couldn't go to Spamalot too so that is about the only thing is helping me out getting over not seeing Spamalot at all. We are hoping to meet up too hopefully close by. I'm going to be do a airplane if I have to just to see him too. The first time on a airplane too if he don't stop in anywhere in Kentucky or close that I can get my sister-in-law to take me she wanted to take me last summer tour but plans change for her so she was sorry about it too. My mom told me that I can anywhere but NYC too she was too worried about NYC now so I'm going to take her word now (I should of tape it just in case she backs down on it). I know I'm 33 years old why is my mom tell me that she is worried about me anyway well I make this story short my mom always wanted a girl she try two times with my brothers before she had me. I also think moms do it a lot too on worried about there kids she told me this before I guess I don't know don't have no kids myself. I'm also going to try to start my driving lessons with my dad again when the weather gets better in Kentucky consider I don't have no one to help me even if I offer money (I'm really want my license). I got two older brother who don't want to help me (and my sister-in-law too me one time too and never again either I must be that bad) and my mom don't want to teach me at all over something I did over 10 years ago that I almost hit a phone poll yea I know. I want to do it mostly for my granny she never got her license at all so she have to depend on other people to take her after my grandfather past away last year and I don't want to depend on my two brothers to do that to me if my parents past away I never get them to do anything for me so I be sitting at home all of the time with no job (lose my job with out a way to get there). I'm trying to stay positive. I sometimes I feel like I work hard and don't have anything to show for it do you feel this way? If you don't boy you are lucky person to not feel this way. I also before I go I do feel better now after I put down how I feel here lately. Take care my fellow Claymates and also have a good and safe weekend I sure am I'm working all weekend long whoowhoo :) .