Okay this will be a depressing blog entry...so you may want to skip it g. I still feel crappy over the TV Guide interview. I was thinking about it last night in bed and realized it was because I felt such a sense of loss. I felt a loss for the JOY that, to me, is Clay. Now, I'm not expecting him to be just some happy go lucky person. I realize he is human and has ups and downs. But even in LTS when he has written about bad times, I always felt a pervading sense of JOY, hope and resilience about him. The TV Guide made me feel that was gone. Now it could be the writer's slant...so I am interested in hearing the radio interviews this week and Clay's blog. Others have also mentioned that the TV Guide article is playing well to males and maybe it is a strategy to gain new fans. I hope not because I don't want to lose all that I love about Clay for a desire to gain new fans. Anyway, I hate that I still feel lousy about it when so many seem to have gotten past it. I am not normally a drama queen but thi s article just did something to me and I really can't completely explain it. Regardless...I love Clay and can't wait for the JBT...but I just wish this nagging emptiness I feel would GO AWAY.