How come one of those choices isn't SAD...because I am...yes again......just so frustrated and sad and everything.... Everything is in place for California, including GOOD tickets....everything but $. It would be another $1000 for airline tickets....just doesnt seem fair. I dont keep any credit cards with a big credit limit...which is good, but bad right now.....I would use one so darn fast. It doesnt seem fair that I have chosen to stay home with my son, I gave up my independence so to speak to help him gain his. I gave up a paycheck with my name on it-and trust me..I hear about it ALL the time...yesterday can you believe..I spent TOO MUCH on water??? only I didnt but give me a break....I dont need to be yelled at about things like that.....

hugs joy

ETA; It's the end of the day and I am not ready to give up...I keep thinking the answer is somewhere....This is just so strange to me. Maybe it is the person I am supposed to meet out there, a good friend met because of Clay...we have never met in person. I really would be able to give her a hug.
I know it is only money...but why should something like that keep us from what gives us joy? It doesnt seem quite fair. I really dont know why I am having such a hard time...probably a combination of everything... aw Jen, HUGS to you....Silly me , I feel pretty selfish....I got a great report and that, my friend should be enough....I admire you and your attitude!!