beware, this is a ranting, venting valentines blog that really doesnt say anything productive in the end...read at your own risk lol

I have a love/hate relationship with Valentines Day. In a way I love it, I love all the different kinds of love, I love the decorations and the OTT hearts and stuff, but then its another day that reminds me that I am and probably will be for a long while, single..Its funny, Im at the age where I think people are starting to get worried about me. You know its bad when your grandmother starts worrying about your single status. I read in an article that its normal, when everyone around you is getting married having babies, for a person to want those things too, so its normal to be a little envious of the people that have found that perfect person for them.

When I bring up these thoughts people tell me a few different things. A. "There is someone out there for you" B. " itll come when you least expect it" C. "It has nothing to do with you, if people arent interested its their loss"

and while these thoughts are great and encouraging, ask any single person what they think of them, and they tell you that they arent too helpful...

When clay put out Lover All Alone, I couldnt believe how much it talked to my life. Ive always been the kind of person who wanted to get married, have kids, stay at home and clean the house, and take care of the children...Ive wanted the beaver cleaver life, but here I am..another valentines day alone, and wondering if God has meant for me to be single forever. People say there is someone out there for everyone, but thats not true...some people never get married, nobody really knows if Im going to be that person, if there is really someone out there for me.

Its unfortunate if there isnt anyone out there for me, because Im a good person..I am...Im funny, and creative and fun and spiritual, I have a lot to offer a person..so I dont look like a movie star, why are guys so superficial? Who knows how many people miss out on someone great, because they wont look a second time at the imperfect person in the corner...and it isnt fair being someone who doesnt turn heads...I heard once that sometimes God sacrifices outward beauty for inward character...I guess thats possibly what happened to me, and thats ok...Id much rather be a good, decent human being...then beautiful anyways...I just wish that someone would give me a chance, because Im worth it.