I'm really tired of learning.

I always thought September was supposed to be the month when the learning started. Not always the case. When God decides that we are going to learn something, we can make it easy and let him lead ...lesson learned. If you are like me.... a "stubborn Dutchman" ( my grandfather would say) it takes longer for it to get through the tiny cranium I use.

This summer was a lesson in letting God be in charge.

He seems to think like my husband that I am a mere mortal. No powers for this "superchick".

Four Friends .. 2 divorced...1 divorce pending....1 considering her options.

See, this is as foreign to me as Bahrain. ( pick a country any country - Bahrain just sounded good - fit in there nicely). I am blessed with a wonderful marriage. A gift and a guy straight from heaven. I don't like to see friends hurting. The supergirl "emotional sponge" absorbs all their problems.... then realizes that I can't fix it.

Young son, growing up. Making progress. Language is coming... but ... "what next? " What happens in a few years"......supergirl can't fix this either. Let it go...

Older son...growing up..can't find the hamper, his baseball cup, he pushes the bounderies and I push back because he is me... only with boy parts. ( my mother wished this on me). She couldn't "fix" me and I can' "fix" him. I love him unconditionally... sometimes kids need to make their own mistakes and learn from them..... supergirl can't save him from being hurt and having disappointments...

Job security, aging parents, health issues.....can't fix either.

This is what I learned this summer. It came in a Steven Curtis Chapman Song " I'm giving it all back to you..... all back to you... this is my surrender. I'm giving it all up to you.....all up to you.... this is my surrender....take it all"

So when people ask about my summer, I had a summer where I had to learn to surrender. Let go. God is God and he is in control. Finally got something solid into my cranium.

I read the book " All I need is Jesus and a good pair of Jeans" - bought it in June reading it for the third time. The author is a tired supergirl.....the author of this blog is a tired supergirl too.

That's why I had to surrender.

God Bless -

Barb