About iabaly

November 29th, 2009.. Was about to tell you my story....but just read blogs of fans that have suffer much much more than I did.... But, as I say so often, we can't compare suffering.... So I think I will attempt to give you an idea of what was my life 'till now..... Childhood without tenderness...lots of blame for nothing...and grew up with a mother who was a problem of alcool.... I don't blame her....She had a life of her own that was nothing to raise her up!... My father ....hum.....nothing there...nothing... So here I am now at 16 years old........ Ready to get married and be happy ever after.... What can I say....I had to get out of my parent's house to be happy. So lets get married....one month after lets get pregnant... one year later....ah...why not get pregnant again...that was not so bad.... And then I made acquaintance with the MIGRAINE!.... ok...so with the migraine came the addiction to codeine for 30 years.....big addiction!....

I manage to have some good time from time to time.... My children were good children... My husband...well...he had problems of his own...panic attacks...anxiety...but 50 years ago, we had no way to even know that he had problems....so we had to invite Mrs Patience...tolerance, hope. One thing that was sure....I never lost hope....never.. Now...Teen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...arrrrrrrrrrrggggggghhhhhh........but don't you worry....this story has a good ending.....:-) Fourteen years old.....my little princess....got entangled in a very bad situation.......Drugs...Got raped by a gang...more than once....then alcool came to "the rescue" to soothe the pain she endured in her soul....and time went buy for years... Got under the influence of a psychopath.....got pregnant....and came back home ...The pscychopath went to prison....I am trying to make the nightmare short... He made surface again and then it was hell....He wanted his baby back.... My daughterr had to go to a special refuge....and let me with her 2 babies.... Finally....a few years later....with the help (?) of the Justice (?) the guy went back to prison. We had a few years of peace.... Well....Very relative....there was that addiction...more than one...... And the fact that I could not say no to her calls for this or that... My two grandchildren lived their first years with grandma... Then one day I had the courage to tell her....Darling....you will now get help....and when you do.....I will be happy to welcome you back.... Nervous breakdown followed me for a few years...I am maniaco depressive...But I went for help and now I am ok....lots of pills to take.....but I am ok....Finally....No more migraine.... Children and grandchildren are ok... My two grandchildren are marvellous young people.....I love them intensly!!!! And we end up today...more or less bruised by life....but Strenght and courage grew along the path.... And I can say that I am finally happy!.... And OMG......completly free!!!!!!!!!!........and OMG....who comes into my life?......THIIS DEAR YOUNG MAN........CLAY AIKEN! my Little Drummer Boy!...... Each day he brings laughter, tenderness, joy, love into my life! A gift from heaven!........Clay.....be happy for the rest of your life!....I know that we can endure suffering along the way....but ....serenity grows as well..and becomes strongerr.... Thank you! Thank you so much!